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WANEE
turning 22
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Wednesday, March 07, 2007 ;
was awake at 9. & i cant get t0 sleep. s0 did s0me cleaning up f0r the r0om. n0t much but atleast 20% 0f dust are g0ne. sweep da fl0or after few weeks i neva did that. =) isnt it weird dat u c0uld m0p, sweep & d0 s0me cleaning at w0rk but u are t0o lazy t0 d0 it at h0me?.. yahs, dats me. maybe bc0z u are n0t paid t0 d0 so wen u are at h0me n m0st pr0bably u'll tink, 'alah... mama ader kaann.'... i admit, i did that. but after much c0nsiderati0n, i tink im being selfish over here. mama is near 52 n shes still w0rkin..s0 y cant i help 0ut at h0me. but yahs, this lazy bum just w0nt m0ve.& i hate myself f0r this. =/ den, heat up the fried rice which mama c0ok earlier on..prepare dadas' breakfast n n0w blogging. ermm.. meeting hazreen later at maybe tan tck seng. den off t0 skin centre f0r ma app0intment. talking ab0ut skin, it still remain da same. it will g0 off fer like one mth n it will cum back again. im s0 sick of it. s0 i decided that if todaes app0intment wasnt that much, i tink i shall st0p wastin ma n0t-w0rking dads' m0ney. tssk.
i dunn0 why ive been thinking t0o much nowadaes. TOO MUCH. ab0ut life, family, friends, relationship. am i accepted f0r wh0 i am? should i change and n0t bec0me myself? sh0uld i listen m0re rather den talk m0re? sh0uld i be s0meone dat othas like but n0t maself?.. see? i t0ld you. dun ask me why im askin myself all this. i dun have the answer. maybe people like besties who noes me inside out will go like 'okay...dia da start perangai pelik dia balik.' n peole hu just n0e me will sae, 'why u s0und weird?'.. MAYBE i just feel insecure. 0r MAYBE i feel scared. or MAYBE i feel like im pissing off pe0ples life. i dun0. y dont YOU tell me since i cant judge my ownself. am i b0ring? d0 i b0re u weneva we are 0ut? are ma w0rds t0o rude weneva im with you? d0es ma attitude sucks? am i c0ncerned/care about you?. d0 i talk t0o much n0nsense without thinking and it hurts u? please tell me people. yahs, i tink besties is right. im startin ma 'perangai pelik' back. its been few years since i left that attitude and n0w it came back kn0cking at me AGAIN. im scared people. i am. but i cant find da reas0n to it. am i thinkin t0o much?.. maybe i should change. but not f0r family n besties. because family n0es me da best n besties w0nt want me t0 change. im c0nfused. ='(
off.Labels: tell me people.
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