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WANEE
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Thursday, July 24, 2008 ;
I've been wanting to post an entry since yesterday night cause I just can't sleep well last night. But oh well, since I'm working 6.30AM today, so I decide to forget about it. And now, here I am, forgetting what I should post. Chet!
Anyway, Brian was being super adorably sweet last night. He wrote "GOOD MORNING" message on a tray mat and leave it at the counter top the whole night. And trust me, it brings smile on my sleeeeeeepy face in the wee morning just now. How thoughtful! LOL! Well actually, last night I'm working with him till 11 and he knows I'm doing opening the very next day, so he wrote that. Hahaha. Kelakar laa dia. *Shakes head* Yesterday should be my OFF day, but was called down to help out for short hours. I don't really mind actually, but just that, I'm worried whether or not they WILL pay me causeI've been working 7 days straight, therefore yesterday pay should be double. You know, sometimes, we can't really trust the management. =) So, my next OFF day would be on this Sunday. Ahhh~
Alright, back to what I should be blogging, I don't know whether I'm being reasonable or Unreasonable. You decide.
Am I wrong not to accept someone's love when I'm emotionally unstable? Sigh. I've tried to make him understand but he just say something like, "Takpelah.. Sapa lahh I ni kan. You kalau nak tunggu ex you, you tunggu aahh.." And I was like -.- ? I'm not saying that I'm waiting for the Ex, (eventhough sometimes I DID say it out, but I'm just too fickle-minded laa ok?), but its just that, I've not yet forgotten the Ex cause I still love him. The Ex is still there, in my heart. I don't give a damn whether or not the Ex still love or care about me cause I know, he NEVER gonna care. But I'm not in any wrong to still love him right on my part? And I JUST broke up, like hello? Is not like I'm with the Ex for like 1 month, its going 2 years, and its not as simple as it is to forget him. Sigh. Some guys simply don't understand. Just let him be. I don't wanna hurt him cause I know I can't love him for now or maybe in the future. So why fake it? Its gonna hurt.
And I know, this situation is happening to me and the Ex too. Like, I still want him despite he doesn't want me anymore? And I KNOW SO MUCH it hurts real bad. But now, I'm trying my best to get a hold of myself and letting go of everything bit by bit. Like what a quote says, "It doesn't make sense to let go of something you had for so long, but it make no sense too to hold on when nothing's there." Right Shayida? Thank you so much for that motivating sayings. =))
Alright. I need to get ready for the meeting later. Take care people. =)
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