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Wednesday, March 25, 2009 ;
another trip to the the clinic which cost me 70 bucks for those medicine and injection on my, butt. -.- well, i must say that injections on butt is more painful than on the arms ehk. HAHA. so, currently my rashes is under control. sigh. doctor informed me not to try any oil perfume at work since she thinks that's one of the items that i've get my rashes from. tsk. now, i can't oil-ed myself with that sensual Vanilla perfume oil anymore for the time being. hehhehe. degil kan aku? then she mentioned not to eat anything related to shrimp or prawns, which i personally think i'm not allergic to those food. but well, i don't mind not eating prawn cause i don't really like prawns, but BELACAN? how can i avoid it when momma cooks her dishes with that, most of the time? as what momma mentioned, "kau kalau tak makan cheese, kau tak rugi apa2, tapi kau rugi besar kalau tak makan belacan." -.- thanks ehh ma, for the kata kata perangsang. chetz! i'm thinking of going for the blood test which the doctor mentioned that day. pretty expensive but to think back, its worth it cause the very least i can know what i'm allergic too so i can avoid it and not to waste anymore bucks to the doctor, the very least, once after 4 months or so? hehs. dad thinks it's a good idea. hmmm..
i'm so careless on that Sunday. i've accidentally melt-ed the toaster wire on the toaster itself. and that cause a tripped in the morning. -.- thank GOD, abang pakcik service can come in. fuhhh! you'll never know how terrified i am when i informed ern nee. cindy was being way too helpful to calm me down rather than Francis Teo, who keep on saying, "ay0 jia lat laah you, ernn nee will scold you upside down." -.- babi betol. haha. then at retail work, i did not scan in another item which somehow caused slight kecoh-ness there. nasib Carol not working. if not, i mampos first. well, i think i'm too sleepy laa ehh. hahaha. but now, i've got more than enough rest that i'm feeling pretty bored at home. bahhs.
anyway, i've wanted to do so many things this year. MANY. but its either i'm stuck with the time, or where to start or about the bucks. shhheessssh. i've got lots to plan for my own life, needs and interest but yeah, since the bodohnya economy is so freaking down, and i couldn't even fucking get to go for any interview for admin job, it makes my plans goes off slowly and eventually DIE. macam babi betol.
ahhh, persevere! like what momma say, "hendak seribu daya, tak nak seribu dalih". fuhh, for the first time, kata kata mak aku kasi impact kat aku. hahaha. cause she's the sort yang macam "aku peduli apa" to us. well, of you know my mom laaa kannnnnnn..... :)
sidetrack,
i watch this indoneasian drama which was repeated in Suria (like selalu kan, SURIA) about ilmu ikhlas thingy? uk uh, i think some of you've known about the drama. haha. a saying which goes something like this, "aku belajar solat hanya kerana aku mengejar ***. bukan kerana ALLAH SWT.." ahh, i can't actually remember apa lahh ehhk. huahuahua. but it just struck me something laa. well, something personal i must say. and that make me realise something. i shan't pray for the sake of wanting GOD to hear me and/or grant my wish. but i must pray for GOD. geees, i sounded like you-know-who laa kak! hahaha.
...i've made up my mind. and i shall try to make it work. i hope i can, cause i really don't want to go back to square one, which i think i'm getting near to back-to-square-one thingy. gettit? oh, forget it.
chalo.
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