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WANEE
turning 22
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Wednesday, September 02, 2009 ;
hey. today's entry might be a lil off. so yeah, you wanna read, go ahead. if not, well you can scram if you want too. oh well!
off today but received messages from work asking me some stuffs which is damn freaking obvious. sickening. can't simply have any peace during my off day. bahhs. seriously, talking about work, just pissed me off in away.
things have been okay with me, exclude work. life haven't been that good but as it is, its obviously better than WORST, just like in 2008. super fcuked up year. -.-
i must say, i am proud of myself for able to move forward somehow in a way. 1 year 4 months isn't a short period. it tooks all the fcuking courage i've got. still, some things just couldn't change. like how i still have him in my mind every day. sighh. nop, i'm no longer waiting as like before. i find it stupid cause why bother when i can have someone else around? no sha, not mR A. obviously. hah! but there's nothing wrong in having a lil hope on what i wished since i'm still single. this part is about Mr I ehh. :) gahhh. no, this is not contradicting. you guys won't understand. tsk.
life have looked up a bit. but i've decided to look down cause i'm still terrified to look up with all the hopes. i don't wanna shout, "aku da tak dengan ____ lagi" followed by extreme tears and fall in the kitchen towards Shasha, with her makeup remover all over her face, anymore. hehs. silly reaction i must say, but it happened. and that shocked Shasha a lot cause she never saw me in that state for 20 years of my life. well that happens when you fall in love. :)
i just want someone. someone who can look after me. someone who treats me fairly as how he treated his family and friends. i don't mind being the very last one in his list, as long he appreciate me and sense my existence. i just need someone who i can laugh, joke, bitch and cry with. i just want someone who could understand what i really feel. i just need someone who show some respect towards my pride and dignity. i just want someone who look extremely adorable in my own eyes, not others. and lastly, someone who have eyes only on me.
is it too much to ask? i know i'm not some kind of supergirl or wonderwoman who thinks i'm fcuking complete. but the least i did not ask for someone way beyond the sky.
if what i'm asking is too much GOD, then i no longer have any say to it.
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